just seen this after a week away too. best wishes rob,hope all turns out well mate.
im not making assumptions but i had a person making a suicide attempt in front of me a while back. as i say im not implying this is what happened here but i do know how you feel.
your doing the best thing by getting back behind the wheel mate.
my thoughts are with all involved and their families.
nah rob you bring the good out in us lot, were all a bunch of miserable so and sos really…big hug from an ugly scotsman in 3 weeks 
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Gogzys right…were drivers…we moan…were cynical…but you put a smile on the faces of a lot of people (on here and elsewhere)…either through your enthusiasm for Mr Vain or your unselfish charity work…hopefully in time all of us on here can help to put the smile back on your face Rob .
A bit late I know but not ben online since tuesday, all the best ayway rob and hope everything turns out ok for you
All the best Rob.
Stu
sorry to hear wots happened ,never met u and i may never,but from iv read on hear ur a top bloke,as the old saying goes it could happen to anyone,hope u get through this
Only just read this since I don’t come on here as often as I used to. Sorry to hear about your accident Rob, and I hope all goes well for you.
only just caught this thread…
thoughts to rob and the others involved
rob can only echo whats bin said already ,you were doing nothing wrong and could do nothing to avoid what happened, these are the thoughts that will bring some small peace and acceptance after such an incident .it just takes time mate
dave
Hey Rob,
Sorry for not sending my regards sooner but i’ve only just heard about it, not had the chance to get on here much lately. Very sorry to hear the news mate, can’t say much other than to wish you all the very best. Had a lad at ours in a similar situation a couple of years back and it’s very hard to know what to say, but sounds as if you’ve got plenty of close people around you to help you through. Thinking of ya fella.
every time we fire that engine up on a monday morning we hope somethin like what happened to rob doesnt happen to us.but sadley it does through no fault of our own we see and are involved in accidents where people do die,robs done the best thing and got back in the saddle , it sounds bad but its part of life these days all we can do is carry on the best we can, have our quiet 5 mins and move on the best we can, reguards to rob i dont know him but reading the posts he does alot for people so carry on mate you doin a great job.
I’m not doing so well tonight. Had a reasonable day, quality time spent with my wife and family. But tonight its all come back to the accident. The what if’s if you like. If i hadn’t been there? If i had of missed a set of lights? If he hadn’t of been a selfish W! Not only did he lose his life, but he has put mine on hold. I’m stuck here not knowing wot the future holds. I wish there was a way of downloading the images in my head, the soundtrack. The noise will be something i’ll never forget. I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Why me? 
(i’m sorry if this reads me me me )
Think you just need time out Rob.
Maybe a week away, anywhere would do fella.
If you havent already done so Pop in and see your GP explain what’s gone on.
Many years ago I was in the right place at the wrong time , yes right place at the wrong time…
A young girl about 6yrs old had been going to visit her mom in hospital with her grand parents, unfortunatly she was hit just outside the hospital and passed away in my arms while i comforted her. The trauma team were just 400yrds from where we were. There was nothing anyone could have done that will alway live with me.
I still see her face from time to time and take myself off for a few moments. yes I still shed a tear.
Like anyone will tell you Rob you wont ever forget but it does get easier believe me
Take it steady fella 
Rob having been there I know every thought you are haveing just now, you have probably left her indoors asleep upstairs while you are posting, so as not to disturb her.
I didn’t have the internet and a place to share my thoughts after mine, and had many disturbed nights.
Fortunatly got over mine after the inquest, without any counseling ect. (didn’t exist in the late 70s) but ocassionaly I still flash the events through my mind, Take your time mate, and realy think could I have done anything to change the outcome, the answer will be NO.
Although you have suffered no physical injury, this accident will affect you for a long time, but believe me once you accept you were in no way to blame for the outcome you will be able to put it behind you and get on with your life.
Easier said than done but try to rest, and let the authorities sort it out.
MR VAIN:
I’m not doing so well tonight. Had a reasonable day, quality time spent with my wife and family. But tonight its all come back to the accident. The what if’s if you like. If i hadn’t been there? If i had of missed a set of lights? If he hadn’t of been a selfish W! Not only did he lose his life, but he has put mine on hold. I’m stuck here not knowing wot the future holds. I wish there was a way of downloading the images in my head, the soundtrack. The noise will be something i’ll never forget. I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Why me?(i’m sorry if this reads me me me )
go back and read your PM´s and think about what was said
MR VAIN:
I’m not doing so well tonight. Had a reasonable day, quality time spent with my wife and family. But tonight its all come back to the accident. The what if’s if you like. If i hadn’t been there? If i had of missed a set of lights? If he hadn’t of been a selfish W! Not only did he lose his life, but he has put mine on hold. I’m stuck here not knowing wot the future holds. I wish there was a way of downloading the images in my head, the soundtrack. The noise will be something i’ll never forget. I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Why me?(i’m sorry if this reads me me me )
dont be sorry rob as has been before some times the best way to deal with something like this is to talk about it
So let me see…You’ve done shock and denial…then anger…now your anger is slowly melting into bargaining…So you’re making progress then. x.
Rob, the problem will be your conscience not wanting to forget the finite details, best therapy for this situation is to sit down and write down the happenings of every last second in the order it occured, then the brain knows it can relax and let go of all the gory details, as the whole lot is logged away on record for further reference, even if you never need to read it again.
MR VAIN:
I’m not doing so well tonight. Had a reasonable day, quality time spent with my wife and family. But tonight its all come back to the accident. The what if’s if you like. If i hadn’t been there? If i had of missed a set of lights? If he hadn’t of been a selfish W! Not only did he lose his life, but he has put mine on hold. I’m stuck here not knowing wot the future holds. I wish there was a way of downloading the images in my head, the soundtrack. The noise will be something i’ll never forget. I feel sick to the pit of my stomach. Why me?(i’m sorry if this reads me me me )
Life is a strange beast sometimes Rob it’s full of ‘what if’s’ if we lived by them we’d never get out of bed in the morning mate… Your family & friends will help you throught this the big word here is TIME…
You won’t get over this straight away & you’ll never forget the day itself but in due time you will learn to cope with it…
I saw Mr Vain being towed down the A14 & just thought bloody hell Robs broke down, i did’nt give it a second thought tbh other than the usual hope it’s not too bad & that you’re back up & running soon. I never really looked to see if there was any damage.
My thoughts are with you mate you’ve got a heart of gold bigman & that plus a loving family & good friends will get you through…
It’s going to take time but you’ll get there.
Dave540 aka Watty to you Rob
Thanks Dave, it’s been a while since i’ve seen you mate (almost a year i think) Everyday is different right now, every hour i think i’m on top of it, every other hour i learn that i’m not. Just got home from an ECT meeting. I stood up and cried in front of what must of been 80 people. This time i cried with anger, anger because of the family that this guy may of left behind.
(i’m sorry if this reads me me me )
Im sure people don’t mind if it help’s you get it of yer chest, sure I dont.
Well i’m considerably brighter this morning (almost a week already, where did that go?) Spoken to my insurance company, they won’t cough for a hire truck, they will how ever give me a hire car !!! Thanks!! 
So, what next? Well hopefully the insurance assesor will be lookin at Mr Vain tomorrow, then we will know what to do next.