You do realize that going to the doctors you may have your hgv licence taken of you .The doctor will have to inform the dvla of your condition.
fingermissing:
You do realize that going to the doctors you may have your hgv licence taken of you .The doctor will have to inform the dvla of your condition.
YES mate, hence I want to be sure I’m OK before I carry on.
I’ve spoken with a friend today who’s a gp, shes advised to have a good chat to my gp Monday, and ask for my bloods to be checked as she thinks it could be thyroid.
Now my mums got underactive, but my symptoms suggest I may have an over which has been suggested may be the cause for Alot of my issues, I seem to live at 1000mph a day then all of a sudden, crash, then rinse and repeat.
From what I can ROUGHLY gauge it may also be why my anxiety is so high, coupled with lifes post/present issues and it seems it could be a possible?
Im not sure but I will definitely ask, or maybe just maybe I’m just a fanny hey [emoji20][emoji57][emoji52]
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Benjie83:
Rich T:
Maybe drive rigids for a little while?I am thinking about it…
I’ll second that advice. You will have about 50% less things to worry about, it will certainly make a difference and it will be an easier way in a job that’s already stressful enough especially for someone with anxiety (although I’m not THAT f-ed up in the head). Also, try night work - the difference is …well, day and night. Much less traffic (until 5a.m. or so)
ETS:
Benjie83:
Rich T:
Maybe drive rigids for a little while?I am thinking about it…
I’ll second that advice. You will have about 50% less things to worry about, it will certainly make a difference and it will be an easier way in a job that’s already stressful enough especially for someone with anxiety (although I’m not THAT f-ed up in the head). Also, try night work - the difference is …well, day and night. Much less traffic (until 5a.m. or so)
Thanks mate[emoji41][emoji41]
Yeah it’s an option definitely, and as always I’m hugely greatful to all who do pop in to my drivel…
No ands or iffs its doctor first is my number one!!
Had a little touch tonight, an old work Mates just messaged me about going with his place if/when I’m sorted/ready…
I’d get 2 weeks SOLID training with a mentor every day to be sure me tacho regs are good, I’ll get rhides, skelly/split training and all the docking practice I can take lol which would be huge for me as its what I need/want.
Plus it’s Alot nearer to home, with shift patterns more suitable until I’m able to get confidence up which would help Alot with my home life/kids and relieve Alot of worry immediately.
I’d love to tramp, and it’s there if/when I’m checked off OK to do so, big confidence boost there too.
Weekends is as needed/wanted/or owed which is cool by me and the big plus is a solid contract of hours at the upper end, so from a family point of view I can be more secure with all the ■■■■ our government pile on us when you have kids in your mix.
He’s been there 3yrs solid and no plans to move on says they’re a good firm, just do your cab hopping, get ya head into the game and they’ll work me right.
I’m not gonna name the firm but they’ve been about for a good while, and welcome new passes subject to a driving assessment…[emoji38] [emoji38]
Drawbacks…
Well staff come and go but its probably due to the type of work as boxes ain’t for everyone hey but it don’t bother me what I do as long as I’m safe to do it, cab hopping, and well box work [emoji16]
So there are options available to me in the future, but regardless I’ve got to be right first so doctors am Monday is all I’m focused on now, see what crack is.
Gonna miss stobbys, genuinely I am but I can’t, nor do I expect them to be concerned with me or my fragile pettle nature [emoji17][emoji849][emoji38]
and as said, I know they aint going to be anyways so it’s for the best for all right now I take the slap and do everyone a favour an move on, maybe one day I’ll return and I definitely would so I hope they won’t burn my bridge atleast [emoji17][emoji17]
Come January maybe I’ll be on a better path mentally, and can be sure then I’m legal, safe, and ready to start again and live me dream, do my family proud, and possibly a company too which be nice [emoji4]
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Oh for fs… enough already…
Your entry for “flounce of the year” has been revoked. For excessive milking…
A bit of weed could sort everything out for you
Bigtruck3:
A bit of weed could sort everything out for you
[emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38]
If nowt else I near choked to death reading that… [emoji38] [emoji38]
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Fully respect your decision to put the lives of others above bringing in a wage, but you do realise, it’s normal to be nervous when first driving an artic? Worried about sucking a pedestrian under your wheels that’s stood too close to the kerb, or some old Doris that has pulled out of a side road whilst you’re checking your mirror and you end up pushing her down the road for 6 miles.
Nerves, worry and the feeling of being as safe as you can be will come with time, you’ll never be 100% safe in these things with all the tossers on the road these days.
Fingers crossed the DVLA don’t take away your licence and you get the chance to drive, would be a hell of a waste of money and hope otherwise! I also hope the doctor can tell you what’s up and fix you up, or you can man up, either one 
Seriously though, when you get back in the truck just bare in mind that it is normal to be nervous, you’ll get more confident with time. I agree you should do a month or 2 in a class 2 to get proper used to the much larger size than a car, all the controls, the way they handle etc, it will make next time you get in an artic infinitely better!
All the best
Benjie83:
robroy:
At the risk of ■■■■■■■ you off mate, being that I’m the most unsympathetic and zero touchy feely type of guy you could ever meet (unless somebody is trying to help themselves and overcome issues that is)
I’m getting the strong urge to tell you to check yer nads are still there and pull yourself together.
You had a half decent job, it ain’t too hard, and if you had stuck in, gave it a fair crack, and adapted yourself, it could have been a goer and a winner.
You had some good advice on here, but you’ve chucked your chances away…for no real reason.He who dares wins Rodney
Apologies for being harsh, seriously,…but that’s just me.
Remind me to never apply for a job with The Samaritans.I’ve been waiting for your bedside manner Mr rob… [emoji38] [emoji38]
Nope your spot on boss, 110% your on the money, but before I carry on I will say I’m doing all I can to get you the shirt you crave alright… [emoji8][emoji38]
Now…
As said, it’s what’s going on in my own personal life, and head that’s stopped me dead bud, the jobs cool but I really did just need more time with a mentor in that regards, just wanted to be 200% safe, and its what they preech to want yet wont honour it…?
I know I’m being a snowflake, but I didn’t come this far to hurt no one for sake of a wage was all, and mentally my minds no coping knowing so all because they want an arse on a seat, me dad would have broke me teeth if he were alive if I’d have said oh well got me licence now, I’m a pro off I go [emoji38]
I know I’m a flake, but ultimately I can’t risk hurting no one bud is all, and that will happen if I ain’t right.
[zb] the cyclists([emoji8][emoji38]) though, fair game they are… [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38]
I’M ONLY JOKING FOLKS FFS SO PLEASE NO EMAILS I LOVE THE LYCRA CLAN AND AM A CYCLIST MYSELF…
It’s a unicycle though so I class myself as superior compared to you two wheeled users… [emoji8][emoji16]
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He really isn’t spot on! ‘For no real reason’ he says clearly not understanding that for some our own minds can be our own worst enemies. Mental health isn’t solved with a ‘pull yourself together’, never was never will be
One tip I remembered last night which has worked for me since my rookie days as a car driver - if in doubt, slow it down. Whatever happens, you know you always have your brakes to rely on. If you panic, ease off - doing 20mph on a 30mph road is not the end of the world; you’re in a big, heavy lorry - other drivers expect you to be slow, it would be rude to disappoint them 
Gives you a lot more time to observe/make decisions/reduces risk/stopping distance. You’ll be surprised how difficult it is to run over pedestrians/cyclists/Toyota Aygo’s, they run away so quickly, usually in a random direction and always away from your truck, I’ve never managed to get one 
Trucking sideways:
Fully respect your decision to put the lives of others above bringing in a wage, but you do realise, it’s normal to be nervous when first driving an artic? Worried about sucking a pedestrian under your wheels that’s stood too close to the kerb, or some old Doris that has pulled out of a side road whilst you’re checking your mirror and you end up pushing her down the road for 6 miles.Nerves, worry and the feeling of being as safe as you can be will come with time, you’ll never be 100% safe in these things with all the tossers on the road these days.
Fingers crossed the DVLA don’t take away your licence and you get the chance to drive, would be a hell of a waste of money and hope otherwise! I also hope the doctor can tell you what’s up and fix you up, or you can man up, either one
Seriously though, when you get back in the truck just bare in mind that it is normal to be nervous, you’ll get more confident with time. I agree you should do a month or 2 in a class 2 to get proper used to the much larger size than a car, all the controls, the way they handle etc, it will make next time you get in an artic infinitely better!
All the best
Thankyou all Gents, genuinely [emoji3590]
Morning Mr sideways [emoji41]
Erm I used to work with pcv/hgv and as said before I grew up in haulage, the actual vehicle size/all the attatached with regards to driving isn’t the issue, its ME as a brain which doesn’t seem to be working.
My brains just not allowing me to switch off my life outside the task in hand, which is what’s causing me to come to this end as I just don’t feel with the expectations the company want to be OUT ON ROAD NOW and as I’ve said, my brain it’s a recipe I want no taste of.
Im 100% considering some C2 work anyway, and I’ve got options so I’m sure I’ll get going again and hope maybe one day I’d be back in green as I really don’t want to leave on bad terms regardless of if they’d give me a try again!!
But it’s definitely seeming like thyroid could be the culprit on top of un buried issues, just spilling out of me as my brains way of perhaps trying to actually fix itself so I can concentrate??
Like it’s having a file dump maybe??
I don’t know but if thyroid/or whatever else needs to be a declaration to DVLA it would be done so regardless of if I continue or not…
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Hi mate,
Your story is very similar to mine 4 years ago I started with ES ( did my licence with them aswel) the job was good but it scared the ■■■■ out of me eveyday, I was exhausted and anxious and I let it get in head.
I left after 3 weeks and went home shaking like a ■■■■■■■■ dog. We’ve all been there!!
I got a job straight away closer to home on a 7.5T, 2 nights out a week steady job… it was like a treatment for me. It gave me time to learn the roads, trucks, loads, tacho hours. It was ■■■■■■■ bang on.
After a year I got back on attics and I was a different man.
You don’t need a doctor mate you need experience!!!
switchlogic:
Benjie83:
robroy:
At the risk of ■■■■■■■ you off mate, being that I’m the most unsympathetic and zero touchy feely type of guy you could ever meet (unless somebody is trying to help themselves and overcome issues that is
I’m getting the strong urge to tell you to check yer nads are still there and pull yourself together.
You had a half decent job, it ain’t too hard, and if you had stuck in, gave it a fair crack, and adapted yourself, it could have been a goer and a winner.
You had some good advice on here, but you’ve chucked your chances away…for no real reason.He who dares wins Rodney
Apologies for being harsh, seriously,…but that’s just me.
Remind me to never apply for a job with The Samaritans.I’ve been waiting for your bedside manner Mr rob… [emoji38] [emoji38]
Nope your spot on boss, 110% your on the money, but before I carry on I will say I’m doing all I can to get you the shirt you crave alright… [emoji8][emoji38]
Now…
As said, it’s what’s going on in my own personal life, and head that’s stopped me dead bud, the jobs cool but I really did just need more time with a mentor in that regards, just wanted to be 200% safe, and its what they preech to want yet wont honour it…?
I know I’m being a snowflake, but I didn’t come this far to hurt no one for sake of a wage was all, and mentally my minds no coping knowing so all because they want an arse on a seat, me dad would have broke me teeth if he were alive if I’d have said oh well got me licence now, I’m a pro off I go [emoji38]
I know I’m a flake, but ultimately I can’t risk hurting no one bud is all, and that will happen if I ain’t right.
[zb] the cyclists([emoji8][emoji38]) though, fair game they are… [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38] [emoji38]
I’M ONLY JOKING FOLKS FFS SO PLEASE NO EMAILS I LOVE THE LYCRA CLAN AND AM A CYCLIST MYSELF…
It’s a unicycle though so I class myself as superior compared to you two wheeled users… [emoji8][emoji16]
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He really isn’t spot on! ‘For no real reason’ he says clearly not understanding that for some our own minds can be our own worst enemies. Mental health isn’t solved with a ‘pull yourself together’, never was never will be
Thanks mate, I think you see it don’t you, and as I’ve just said In my reply above…
It’s like maybe my brains having a file dump in an attempt to clear itself, maybe so it CAN just do the task in hand that it knows I want to do so badly…?
The thyroid to me would explain why its happening so hard and fast as its looking to be overactive, thus its sped whole thing up to warp speed at a time when I don’t need it too!!
Coupled with lifes constant inputs, past/present/worrys/debts/family and a dream I want to honour/achieve, and you get the veg on the plate I’ve become.
Bloke above said I need a good smoke, he’s probably not wrong lol but I don’t partake in da reefa hahaha so maybe meditation, or if medical its that and a mix of other bits and as rob says, a good slap and grow a pair and which to be fair is a valid approach as me dad would have used it first on me and 8/10 it would have worked…[emoji38][emoji38]
But alas cheers Mr sl, its good to read someone else has a similar pattern to me as to actual possible why’s to it all aswell… [emoji41][emoji41]
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the nodding donkey:
Oh for fs… enough already…Your entry for “flounce of the year” has been revoked. For excessive milking…
+1
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bj86uk:
Hi mate,
Your story is very similar to mine 4 years ago I started with ES ( did my licence with them aswel) the job was good but it scared the [zb] out of me eveyday, I was exhausted and anxious and I let it get in head.
I left after 3 weeks and went home shaking like a [zb] dog. We’ve all been there!!
I got a job straight away closer to home on a 7.5T, 2 nights out a week steady job… it was like a treatment for me. It gave me time to learn the roads, trucks, loads, tacho hours. It was [zb] bang on.
After a year I got back on attics and I was a different man.You don’t need a doctor mate you need experience!!!
Bless ya heart mate, thankyou for being honest on a forum to a stranger, means alot [emoji41][emoji41][emoji41][emoji41]
It’s not eddie persae, but the pressure to be straight out on road hasn’t helped, as I said long above i just wanted to be exactly as you said “confident” that I could do the job safe and well for the them in that regard, yip I just needed more time was all but hey ho it’s not their way it seems, other guys have had 2 weeks,
Some 2 days, some nowt…■■
One size don’t fit all, and folk shouldn’t be treated so when their either new/returning to it as end of day we are all different and some of us really do want to be a proud member of a team, and not be on bridge strike Britain, but we need more time, chance favours the brave yes, but more haste/less speed keeps your angel in check, pick a poison ain’t it but my brain seems to have gone for the ■■■■ a brick to be sure approach, be it medical reasons at cause we’ll see…
As for the rest, it’s just me ain’t it, and that isn’t Stobarts fault!!
But the pressure really didn’t help my confidence, pair me and that together and here I am, souped [emoji17]
Great bunch of people though and again I’ll be very sad to leave but they’ve a business to run, it’s the safest option to me atleast that I go [emoji57][emoji20]
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jimcab:
the nodding donkey:
Oh for fs… enough already…Your entry for “flounce of the year” has been revoked. For excessive milking…
+1
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+2
deffo kicking the jacksie out of it now.
at this rate we will be watching it on richard and judy by next week.
the nodding donkey:
Oh for fs… enough already…Your entry for “flounce of the year” has been revoked. For excessive milking…
And your chance to get a free eddie shirt has been revoked for upsetting my delicate state, so enjoy those apples.
Good day to you sir. [emoji8]
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dieseldog999:
jimcab:
the nodding donkey:
Oh for fs… enough already…Your entry for “flounce of the year” has been revoked. For excessive milking…
+1
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+2
deffo kicking the jacksie out of it now.at this rate we will be watching it on richard and judy by next week.
[emoji38] [emoji38]
And I hope it’s in an rdc for you too boot. [emoji8][emoji38]
Im not milking nowt Mr dog, and im bit down you feel I am fella, but genuinely I’m not, I’m simply replying to folks and the points they’ve raised as it is hugely appreciated to hear other views, so out of good courtesy for their time invested it’s only good manners to show the respect back, well to me anyway…
Now I’m prepared to give you some time to reflect on your take of me, and if you’d like to have your chance back at obtaining an eddie shirt, Im prepared to accept your apology, as long as you retract the richard/Judy part, as I’m a trisha fan.
I hope this can be to your liking my good sir [emoji106][emoji41][emoji16]
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go to the doctor…tell him your a bit short of lamp oil and lose your licence.
take happy pills and they will make you a bigger risk when your driving till your licence is revoked.
jack it in and get the doc to sign you off because of anxiety and stress ( the usual favourite) .
get onto esa and not jobseekers cos your unfit to work and itl save you messing with all the looking for a job pish you will be made to comply with.
after 6 month you will get assessed which you will fail,then so long as you appeal,you can stay on esa anyway.
or
get a groupage job with 25 deliveries plus collections every day and you will be too busy to be thinking about anything else.
or
a sure fire cure to cheer yourself up is to start watching eastenders as no matter how poorly you feel just now you will watch them and think…i might be bad,but ffs at least im not as sad as them.
if it gets that bad and you think,this is it,im going out in style with the crazy truck driver suicide carnage aspect of things like the taliban did a while ago at the berlin christmas market,then do us all a favour and pick the cycle lane of your choice to do it in… 
dieseldog999:
go to the doctor…tell him your a bit short of lamp oil and lose your licence.take happy pills and they will make you a bigger risk when your driving till your licence is revoked.
jack it in and get the doc to sign you off because of anxiety and stress ( the usual favourite) .
get onto esa and not jobseekers cos your unfit to work and itl save you messing with all the looking for a job pish you will be made to comply with.
after 6 month you will get assessed which you will fail,then so long as you appeal,you can stay on esa anyway.
or
get a groupage job with 25 deliveries plus collections every day and you will be too busy to be thinking about anything else.
or
a sure fire cure to cheer yourself up is to start watching eastenders as no matter how poorly you feel just now you will watch them and think…i might be bad,but ffs at least im not as sad as them.if it gets that bad and you think,this is it,im going out in style with the crazy truck driver suicide carnage aspect of things like the taliban did a while ago at the berlin christmas market,then do us all a favour and pick the cycle lane of your choice to do it in…
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I knew you wanted that shirt… [emoji16]
But I’ve not had the apology I deserve for the Judy comment, I’m not budging on this point.
Now, to address your point on the best way to go out, and in hopefully a mature manner mr dog, I will say this, I won’t be mowing them down in Berlin as I don’t have a passport.
As for your point about a career on the sponge, I’d rather chew a dogs knot hole while watching richard and judy sat in a bath of cat vomit, listening to James blunt.
I’m in a bad place, but I’m not that done yet…
To note your point on groupage…
Thats not a bad call indeed, so I’m gonna get me toy box checked and if I’m good to go, safe and legal then I’ll be back out on the pony’s in no time, stablizers off too [emoji106]
I hear ya Mr dog, your obviously a very seasoned gentleman with a yard stick that fixes it all in life, I respect it bloke, yes your right I’m being a fanny and I do know it but I have to be sure im safe, then I can lock the door, leave my family and get out here into the world of wonder truckers and see what I land on…
I’ll be driving the below attached for a bit though…
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