Well what can i say people!!! reading all your messages is just overwhelming and that is a serious understatement how the hell can i all thankyou enough for all of your kind words and messages of suuport you all just never fail to amaze me .
after a couple of boozy days margate is back!!! i have had a good think about things, got up off my sorry self pitying arse and sorted myself out. i think it hurt me more not so much that i didnāt pass but in the manner in which i didnāt pass that really got to me!! what made it worse was that when the examiner came over to tell me i knew straight away what i did wrong and could not believe i had not done anything about it, after all it was all happening in the mirrors for me to see and my mind just went blank like a numpty!!! so i suppose i was really angry at myself for not putting into practice what i had learnt all week instead of just driving at the centre cone .
i had the same examiner as i had on my class 2 and i felt ok when i realised it was clive taking me again, we walked over to the truck he asked me the two safety questions about how i would check the reflectors and the lights on the veichle, no problem there. then i jumped up into the cab and pulled forward to the end cones and got as close to the centre cone as i could and stopped dead on at the end ones. still feeling fine then.
i put it into reverse get full right hand lock, and go back at walking pace checking the mirrors and as soon as i see the the white trailor leg handle in left mirror put full left hand lock on to get the cab parellell with the yellow line but not quck enough, so turn on trailor was minimal. had a good foot and half too yellow line so more right hand lock could of been applied to get trailor round, but my mind just went blank and kept going taking out the middle coneā¦end of test.
test examiner clive comes over to tell me i had failed and gently asked me wether i wanted to go out for drive anywayā¦for which i didnāt need to long to think about that i just wanted to get out of there and get home. test lasted approximately 5 mins. so you can see why i was so down sat morning, not only dissapointed with myself but the fact i had just chucked Ā£834 down the drain in 5 mins.
anyways i have phoned up driving school and they have nothing till 29th june, but hopefully i may be able to get a cancellation before then with any luck but iāll have to wait and see. like one of the replies said it is in my veins now so there aint no going back , when i got home saturday i just went upstairs into the bedroom as i did not want to be with anyone for a while, especially as all my kids gave me a big hugwhen i got in and told me not to worry about it, i got a text from oldest daughter to cheer me up who is 12 and that has made me even more determined with what she said " if i am as good a lorry driver as i am a great dad, then next time i will walk it!!" you can all imagine how that made me feel at the time especially as she kew how important it was to me bless her
so once again thankyou all so much for your messages you really helped drag a man back up off his knees and not only do i owe it to my family to pass next time, but i really owe it to all of you too your support has beenā¦well i canāt put it into words just sayin thankyou just does not seem to be enough but THANYOU
P.S. Tiggz doesnāt know me better than any of you tartanraider
P.P.S. Its like having a second or extended family on here!!!
P.P.P.S just had driving school on the phone got another test on 29th june at 2.30pm