There are 2 quotes on this thread which about sum it up for me…
truckyboy:
but what i have missed over the years is being there for my children…i`ve missed the best part of their lives…growing up…and i havnt been there for them when i was needed…acting a bit like a single parent is what truck driving is all about…as my wife once said…or i should say all 3 of them…your only a lodger…your home is your bloody truck…cant deny that…
For obvious reasons, this one has risen to the forefront of my mind recently. When I had my daughter, I had no choice (for both financial and logistical reasons) but to go straight back to 4-5 nights out a week 6 weeks after the birth - and driving weekends after less than a fortnight…one of my saddest memories is of her Dad ringing me up to tell me she had just given her first smile. And where was I? On the A34 in a [zb] lorry.
This time I do have a choice, and by god I’m going to take it. But that leads me to quote number two…
Coffeeholic:
Trouble is I have done it for so long I’m not sure what else I can do. I’m not qualified to do anything else, in fact I have no qualifications worth speaking about.
Thereby lies the rub. I’ve only been driving 5 years, but when your only 28 that’s a good chunk of your working life. Before that I was a forkie for 3 years(so transport again) and before that…well, we won’t go into my mis-spent youth…
The compromise for me is to start saying farewell to the tramping (by cutting my nights out) when I go back to work in September. But if I had a choice, and could earn the money another way, right now I would.
Trucking is always there to go back to, the here and now (be that your kid’s early lives or any other priority at the time) will not be.
That said, it’s easier said than done to “let go”, and I for one admire Neil immensely for having the courage to follow through his convictions…I’m not that brave. This week is supposed to be my last week on tramping before I go onto day work after Easter (and the US thing) until early/mid May…but I’m already talking about doing “just a couple more weeks” when we come back from the States…