Well 6th lesson down, and still feeling a bit crap from last lesson my confidence did take another few knocks today. Todays lesson was to do a couple hill starts and to do some reversing both on straight and up and down hill needless to say on that part of things I’ve managed to successfully do no problem but what my problem is mainly with my instructor agreeing with me is the fact my nerves kick in at busy places…For example the traffic lights at pontefract if anyone knows what I mean with the 4 way junction in the middle of lunchtime traffic and being at the front of the ■■■■■■■ que at the lights needless to say bunny hops were favoured today 
Paul taught me how to move off quicker without doing the bunny hops near to the end of the lesson but he knows my nerves are a little bit naffed but he says I need to learn to not give a ■■■■ about other people around me and that I should take things at my own pace even if other people get annoyed with me it’s not my problem so I suppose that works but it’s getting it embedded in my mind so I’m not rushing to end up making mistakes so anyone caught behind me this morning I apologize I hope you had a good laugh at my expense though 
Although I did have my good moments today, when trying to turn around in ferrybridge in the little estate in the little bit where you can turn around but seems to be too small to get all the way round without reversing well today I mounted my first kerb for the fact I WAS getting it round in one without reversing! So I suppose it was an achievement in one But in general it was a pretty good drive, I even had a little complement on my reversing well although a criticism Paul says I’ve got lorry driver syndrome aka I just look in my left and right mirrors when reversing which I picked up from my dad and granddad on the road I suppose getting used to that…I can only hope though I get my confidence built up. Next week will be a big test though as I’m doing my first 2 hour lesson so will be good to see if I cope well with that 
I do love driving though I just wish I felt like I was getting better not worse 
Cheers
Jonny 
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