maybe you are just homesick
feeling like you dont fit in ,the square peg . what iv done to settle myself in instead of the sullen brooding approach is to get all bolshy and opinionated. if you thought they were all against you before give them a reason to.go off ■■■■ and wrongfoot the status quo , what really works is to slate someones wife “has she a hairy chest?” can often clear the air and before you know it youre one of the lads