Change job/ career mate. Simple. Now that may sound like I’m coming across all "Billy bigballs " but trust me I’m not; some people need routine in their lives, others less so. Either way doesn’t make anyone more or less of a man, it’s just how we are hard wired.
I personally would never voluntarily do something that got to me enough to affect my mental wellbeing and so would rather change direction/job/ lifestyle if something was ■■■■■■■ me off.
So to the o/p I’d respectfully suggest you try a different career path as there are way too many variables in this ridiculous industry to ensure stability. Either way I wish you luck.